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I had my 1st term exam result. It's not as worse as I think before :) The worst subject gonna be add maths, when I see the test paper which had been marked , what? 40 marks? E ????!! just at the corner, to fail.. I was like..so terrible.. and take a look with the correct answers, some questions, is easy, and I think I can did it right. But I dont know why I fail to do it during the exam. some of them, I left BLANK...what am I thinking at the moment? too nervous? I spent too much time on those harder questions. and so LUCKILY, some of them I did it correctly. When I check clearly, thank god, teacher has counted wrong my marks, it was 51.. at least. C now.. other subject is just okay. I can do better isn't it? :)
I use to, suppose to accept my life now right? I suppose to take everything, as normal. Do not care and think over too right? Those things had left away, and I am not suppose to care about it anymore. Only few months to go. I can tolerance. I can act to be nothing at all ! :) I can only tell myself: "yeah, this is life, life is going to be like this". I have did a psychological test just now, from a magazine, it said that my life is going "fashionable" enough, but my life is kinda hard and tough? huh? at that time I asked myself, huh? is it? LOL, forget it... just a test what.. right, I should not believe it, it may be hard for now, currently only. I know it will not last long. I am not going to leave any feeling on it? should I? since they seems no longer care about it already, I dont have to hope for too much right.

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"This wasn't a choice between you and Jacob. It was a choice between who I am and who I should be."

-Bella Swan.

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I dont know why am I so stubborn. I did a very capricious thing today! D': Though capricious, at least, maybe I won't feel regret when I think of it next time. Coin decide for me, means god allow? No matter how, I already did it. I have never feel the big bravery of myself for so long. It suddenly came back in this morning. "Bravery, you are so strange to me nowadays! Where have you been for so long? I have been finding you hardly and missing you so badly D:" 

Having seriously stomachache[menstrual pain] and leg muscles cramp from last night. Forced to eat the pink pill finally. If not I'm going to roll myself on the bed & floor again-_- lol..


Sugar is accompanying for this lonely day-today. Actually tonight I m going to be home-alone, but friends suggested to steamboat at my house later. Luckily, if not I dunno what I can do for the whole night!

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Bad day. I cannot complete what I promise myself to do today. Nowadays I set a to-do list for myself, listed works and jobs for myself to do, as many as possible,to prevent myself stepping in to the negative thinking way again. so that the cross mark will slowly become lesser as day goes on. I believe that I can let the calendar to be clean one day. trust me :) because I know, it is the time to stop rewinding and playing back. they all become very impossible. hopeless and "chance-less". Yes, is hard, but I am ok with it.



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I am totally not willing to be cruel. I am not, I never ever want. Just because the words you said, they killed the cells in my heart.

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Today wasn't a bad day, although there's still a CROSS at the calendar, but today was just normal. not too tough, not easy going. really really thank you, for understanding :) I will be okay. I knew I am so selfish and this payoff will be kinda hard for you. We just can make our own way. will be better! We will be release. Jiayou.  . 

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Leaving here for months, suddenly get inspired to come back, a place which won't reject me from staying, a place which let me to share my thoughts. I really miss you a lot.

Has anyone here felt the changing of yourself in your life? How it feels? Horrible? Hatred? or Better?
Has anyone here experienced the loneliness, while being reject, while no-one willing to understand you, cares about you, support you, no encouragement, no consolation?
Has anyone here made a single decision which could change everything in your life, without peoples' support and suggestion? How did you feel?

I cannot really confirm that I have experienced everything above, but I do feel like that before, and now still, sometimes, I do. I cant manage to control myself, to think in a negative way. I am trying very hard, not to feel frustrated, not to give up; but when sometimes it comes to me, I cannot even resist. I hate the feelings.
I want everything that belong to me, back to me. My toughness, bravely, happiness and all.. I keep on thinking and thinking, since when, I became so weak and easy to be affected? since when, I became very care of others' opinions? I keep on asking myself, why? I am not this type of person last time, I do not care about what others say, if I am right, I really wont care last time. Does this mean I did wrong this time? Do I have to feel regret? Do I have to give up this way? Do I have to apologize? Is this all punishment or it is just a big waves and thunder storm that I have to pass through in my life? Is this all just have to strengthen me, to make me stronger? It had been 30 days, a month, I have been very struggle. The days are tough. It feels like passing a year. I lost my own self, I lost my mind, and everything. I want to delete all them, but I feel grudge to do that, I am not willing at all. And here, thankful to a person, who understands, the only person, who really forgiving to me. but sorry too, I am still me of the last time. I cant manage to give up yet, I don't want, I am not ready to lose them yet. maybe, slowly, they'll be blur and disappear in my mind, but don't wait, I wont blame if you gonna change your mind :) maybe gonna be better.

Everyday, hoping for a better tomorrow. yes, right, the most difficult thing, is to know ourselves, true.

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I had my 1st term exam result. It's not as worse as I think before :) The worst subject gonna be add maths, when I see the test paper which had been marked , what? 40 marks? E ????!! just at the corner, to fail.. I was like..so terrible.. and take a look with the correct answers, some questions, is easy, and I think I can did it right. But I dont know why I fail to do it during the exam. some of them, I left BLANK...what am I thinking at the moment? too nervous? I spent too much time on those harder questions. and so LUCKILY, some of them I did it correctly. When I check clearly, thank god, teacher has counted wrong my marks, it was 51.. at least. C now.. other subject is just okay. I can do better isn't it? :)
I use to, suppose to accept my life now right? I suppose to take everything, as normal. Do not care and think over too right? Those things had left away, and I am not suppose to care about it anymore. Only few months to go. I can tolerance. I can act to be nothing at all ! :) I can only tell myself: "yeah, this is life, life is going to be like this". I have did a psychological test just now, from a magazine, it said that my life is going "fashionable" enough, but my life is kinda hard and tough? huh? at that time I asked myself, huh? is it? LOL, forget it... just a test what.. right, I should not believe it, it may be hard for now, currently only. I know it will not last long. I am not going to leave any feeling on it? should I? since they seems no longer care about it already, I dont have to hope for too much right.

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"This wasn't a choice between you and Jacob. It was a choice between who I am and who I should be."

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I dont know why am I so stubborn. I did a very capricious thing today! D': Though capricious, at least, maybe I won't feel regret when I think of it next time. Coin decide for me, means god allow? No matter how, I already did it. I have never feel the big bravery of myself for so long. It suddenly came back in this morning. "Bravery, you are so strange to me nowadays! Where have you been for so long? I have been finding you hardly and missing you so badly D:" 

Having seriously stomachache[menstrual pain] and leg muscles cramp from last night. Forced to eat the pink pill finally. If not I'm going to roll myself on the bed & floor again-_- lol..


Sugar is accompanying for this lonely day-today. Actually tonight I m going to be home-alone, but friends suggested to steamboat at my house later. Luckily, if not I dunno what I can do for the whole night!

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Bad day. I cannot complete what I promise myself to do today. Nowadays I set a to-do list for myself, listed works and jobs for myself to do, as many as possible,to prevent myself stepping in to the negative thinking way again. so that the cross mark will slowly become lesser as day goes on. I believe that I can let the calendar to be clean one day. trust me :) because I know, it is the time to stop rewinding and playing back. they all become very impossible. hopeless and "chance-less". Yes, is hard, but I am ok with it.



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I am totally not willing to be cruel. I am not, I never ever want. Just because the words you said, they killed the cells in my heart.

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Today wasn't a bad day, although there's still a CROSS at the calendar, but today was just normal. not too tough, not easy going. really really thank you, for understanding :) I will be okay. I knew I am so selfish and this payoff will be kinda hard for you. We just can make our own way. will be better! We will be release. Jiayou.  . 

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Leaving here for months, suddenly get inspired to come back, a place which won't reject me from staying, a place which let me to share my thoughts. I really miss you a lot.

Has anyone here felt the changing of yourself in your life? How it feels? Horrible? Hatred? or Better?
Has anyone here experienced the loneliness, while being reject, while no-one willing to understand you, cares about you, support you, no encouragement, no consolation?
Has anyone here made a single decision which could change everything in your life, without peoples' support and suggestion? How did you feel?

I cannot really confirm that I have experienced everything above, but I do feel like that before, and now still, sometimes, I do. I cant manage to control myself, to think in a negative way. I am trying very hard, not to feel frustrated, not to give up; but when sometimes it comes to me, I cannot even resist. I hate the feelings.
I want everything that belong to me, back to me. My toughness, bravely, happiness and all.. I keep on thinking and thinking, since when, I became so weak and easy to be affected? since when, I became very care of others' opinions? I keep on asking myself, why? I am not this type of person last time, I do not care about what others say, if I am right, I really wont care last time. Does this mean I did wrong this time? Do I have to feel regret? Do I have to give up this way? Do I have to apologize? Is this all punishment or it is just a big waves and thunder storm that I have to pass through in my life? Is this all just have to strengthen me, to make me stronger? It had been 30 days, a month, I have been very struggle. The days are tough. It feels like passing a year. I lost my own self, I lost my mind, and everything. I want to delete all them, but I feel grudge to do that, I am not willing at all. And here, thankful to a person, who understands, the only person, who really forgiving to me. but sorry too, I am still me of the last time. I cant manage to give up yet, I don't want, I am not ready to lose them yet. maybe, slowly, they'll be blur and disappear in my mind, but don't wait, I wont blame if you gonna change your mind :) maybe gonna be better.

Everyday, hoping for a better tomorrow. yes, right, the most difficult thing, is to know ourselves, true.

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She's Carolicious. Her real name was Carol. Surname: Leong.
Obviously, she's an ordinary GIRL, with long black hair.
168cm tall and 49kg currently. [yea quite FAT I know!!"on-diet"]
An Asian with light colour skin, black iris and red lips.
She born and raised in Kuala Pilah, Negeri Sembilan, Malaysia.
Everyone wishes her "Happy Birthday" on 28th of July!
She's currently a 16years-old student.
She loves FOOD; TOY-POODLE; camwhoring; dancing; singing; day-dreaming; travelling; hanging out with friends; SHOPPING n more!
She's such a Shopaholic! and She loves PINKISH thingy much!
She's a FREAK fans of HELLO KITTY and she craves for more Juicy Couture's stuffs!
a HUGE fans of Wang Lee Hom!
have fell in ♥ with 태양 Taeyang seriously!!
and also a Fan of 박봄 PARK BOM from 2Ne1!
She's currently SINGLE but NOT AVAILABLE xD
She loves online and she DO LOGIN to FACEBOOK BLOGGER NUFFNANG TWITTER everyday!
She loves Blogging much and she's trying hard to learn her ENGLISH well,
so please pardon her if she did any grammar mistake in her blog post!
Read her Blog often and you'll know more about her :D Thank you!
♥Enjoy your staying here!

Luff♥xoxo,
Carolicious.
blessing for everyone's happiness!

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